As most of you know already from my facebook post, I'M PREGNANT!!! I actually started testing last Friday, October 7. I was feeling really crampy and just kind of yuck. I justified it in my head by telling myself that if it came back negative, it would have been because it was too early. So at about 3:45 in the afternoon, I pee'd on that stick. About a minute later the results came up - the second line was faint, but it was definitely there! I immediately called Jenny and had a freak out attack while on the phone with her, and of course she joined in. I was crying and shaking and in disbelief. It's funny how shocking it is to be so surprised that your pregnant when there was obviously a damn good chance you were, by the way. After I freaked out with Jenny, I ran upstairs to Neisan's nanny, test in hand. She freaked with me too, and there were more tears and more staring at the pee stick. She was an awesome person to share this with - she is the other mom to Neisan basically, and now she will have a new little life to care for. After we were done being crazy, I decided I needed to probably tell Geno... He wasn't home when I took the test, so I tried to think of an awesome way to tell him before he got home in 5 minutes. I thought of basically nothing, so I taped the test to the door coming in from the garage, the one he would have to come through to come inside. I used bright blue painters tape, and made sure it would be right at his eye level. His truck pulled up, the dogs barked, and I waited for him to come in, surprised as ever. In he walked. And nothing. He didn't freaking see it. Now this doesn't surprise me in any way, and it honestly made the whole thing better. I told him to go look at the door, and then got a great reaction - a fist bump. Gotta love my husband.
All this time Neisan had been sleeping. When he woke up, I went to get him out of his room. I got in his bed with him and told him "mama's gonna have a baby!" Now normally he would reply with his stern toddler all about me attitude with something to the tune of "no, my baby! Mine mama!" but all he said was "pink". I asked him what he said, and just said "pink" again. I'm so anxious to see if this baby is a girl now!
This morning we had our official blood test. They measure the hcg in your bloodstream and check it two days later to make sure the numbers are doubling in 48 hours. My level was 302! That's an amazing number, now we just have to make sure it's getting bigger and bigger! When I went into the clinic this morning, everyone who has been by me throughout all of this came in to tell me congratulations, and to do a mini celebration with me. I just love them all there so much, and I know that had the outcome been different, they still would have been there.
Geno and I are obviously on cloud 9 right now, and have been since the first faint line. At the same time though, I know I have to be cautious. It's so early in the pregnancy (like 4 weeks) and I know that anything can happen. So why did we decide to tell everyone? We decided that when we found out we were pregnant with Neisan that we had had too many negative tests. We had tried without success too many times, and that we were going to celebrate, for however long we could, that we were going to be parents. That's the philosophy we are going with again. We don't know how the pregnancy will end up, but for right now we are pregnant. And we are so beyond happy right at this moment that we want to tell everyone! All those thoughts and prayers that were sent our way throughout all of this have been so amazing - and we want to keep them up! If all goes well, we will be holding our baby on June 19, 2012.
It's so strange to be pregnant again, especially since I don't really have any symptoms yet. That first trimester tiredness is starting to come in small doses, but other than that I feel pretty normal. Neisan talks about it all the time, telling everyone that mama has a baby in her tummy, and that it's his baby. He says it's a girl, and that it will have a "hoo", not a "weenie". I will be happy with a hoo or a weenie - I am pregnant, and I am going to have another baby! Oh happy day......
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